My Journal for Psychiatric Nursing Concept 01
One thing that I learned— “LEARNED” today is, “Anxiety can KILL a person.”
We had our duty at the FEU-VINES laboratory and we were presented a scenario wherein we should revive the dummy in cardio-pulmonary arrest. We were taught on how to revive him and we clearly understood the lesson transpired to us. Our group even reviewed the procedures and got it right but during the actual simulation, we let him die.
Looking back to what had happened, I knew we were so nervous that we forgot simple things to take into consideration. I always experienced anxiety whenever we are being graded in doing nursing procedures especially if I am doing it the first time, during revalidas, return demonstrations or clinical exposures. I believe that nursing students are guilty of this same situation. I know it is normal to be anxious during “first times” but if I am going to kill a person just because of this anxiousness then it not OK anymore.
I can’t determine on what level of anxiety I belong but I am definitely not on the PANIC level LOL! Anxiety causes mistakes and not-so-good grades, which I despise. I have experienced this kind of anxiety many times but I still can’t conquer it. Good thing, I am not that perfectionist type and I have this philosophy in life that “It’s ok to fail or not to do the thing properly if it is the first time but if it happened again on the second time, then I am a dumb ass.” Rationale for this is that, the first “encounter” is your reference on how the things… it enables you to formulate strategies or techniques the second time you encounter the same situation in the future. This philosophy helped me cope as well as the inspiring and motivational words of my group mates. I am basically an optimistic person and I thought “at least now, with my mistakes I will learn and I knew how it feels to have a patient did (though it is just a dummy), I will not let it happen again and so I will always do my best.” those thinking made me feel relieved and so I am ok now.
I learned that, I need to improve in composing myself in times like that. I need to stay calm to be able to perform my duty correctly. I need to believe in myself that I can do it and not to question myself if I can do it. Lastly, I need to put everything that I learned in mind in my heart for me to always remember things. To sum it up, I had a very memorable experience today and though I was frustrated, I still enjoyed our simulation.
