I can clearly remember that day… The weather was the same as now…
It was raining… Cozy… Gloomy…
July 25, 2009
Everybody’s texting, checking the web and online whether it’s on Facebook, Friendster, Multiply or YM…
I put my fone away where I can’t see nor hear it… I was offline(which rarely happen)… Instead, I went to my room, watched Lost where I can be far from all the anxious, stressed, nervous and toxic people saying news that IT IS ALREADY OUT…
I fell asleep… I was exhausted…
Then, Something woke me up, around 9PM… (maybe it’s my gut…)
I went to the other room and checked on my fone…
There were 30+ messages about THE RESULTS…
Yes, THE RESULTS of the NURSING LICENSURE EXAM…
The long awaited has finally arrived…
As I’ve checked on it… There were 2 of my friends who congratulated me because I WAS ON THE LIST.
I PASSED.
My heart was pounding (heeey, I need Amniodarone.)… My hands are stone cold and I was starting to grasp for air…
I checked it for myself, looked for my name with my sister, Roxanne…
and there I WAS…
I jumped like it was New Year… I felt Christmas in July… I shouted like there was no tomorrow…
I PASSED!!!
I am a REGISTERED NURSE…
This is the greatest birthday gift that I’ve ever received… (since my birthday is on July 27)
My sister and I went nuts— or should I say… I WENT NUTS. Complete state of EUPHORIA…
Mama wasn’t there with me for she and my brother went out for a swim… (She actually got angry for I didn’t come… she didn’t understand what I was feeling… I felt it coming and so I didn’t join them…)
I was practicing before breaking her the news… I was actually practicing “Ma, ginawa ko naman lahat ng makakaya ko… pero wala talaga eh… gagalingan ko na lang sa susunod na exam… hindi ko nakita yung name ko eh…”
Oh well… It backfired. She already knew because my tita already told her. Mama called me and she was CRYING… Yes, CRYING because of HAPPINESS…
THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS WONDERFUL GIFT…
The rain indeed poured out blessings for those who made it, while for most, as the rain was pouring hard, tears simultaneously ran down their faces and their loved ones and I believe you know why…
I was saddened too for some of my closest friends were not on the list… and though I know what therapeutic communication is, I don’t know how to comfort and console them…
This is not to brag… Cry until your eyes fall out but rest assured, there will be a greater glory for you… It is hard and painful, I know, but the fight is not yet over, it will only be over when you give up and if you did give up, that is when you call yourself a LOSER because you see, every after the rain is a rainbow, and at the end of the rainbow is always a pot of gold.
So, cheer up my friend…
This is where you learn and this is when you will know how many your true friends are. I may seem to be far and seem not to care… I hope you know that I was giving you your personal space until your ready. I hope you know that I am always here for you… Never did I cease to pray for our success and I’ll continue to pray for it…
There is always a reason for everything and why this had happened, let us just trust HIS plan… There is nothing to be shy or afraid of, it is not the number of takes you made… it is on how you will be the great nurse GOD has planned you to be… Don’t punish yourself, instead, find strength in yourself as God has always believed in you. One thing that I’ve learned from one TV Series that I watch… “Never allow other people to tell you things that you CANNOT do…”. Look at it as one hell of a motivation and move on…(sounds cliche but its indeed true…)
Keep up the good fight. I know you can do it because you are a FIGHTER… you are a WINNER…
You were not left out, you’re plane hasn’t come yet… as you know here in the Philippines, flights are always delayed… LOL!
As one of the television ad said… “Never say die, there is always another day…”
P.S
This is not my thank you speech, I would just like to give a big hug to my friends out there who…. (well, I can’t say it myself… *sigh*). This is what I say when we were texting/chatting…
